Sunday, February 26, 2012

s e c r e t -- g a r d e n

What is Secret Garden? Not just a typical Korean drama with handsome hunks & pretty chicks.


I’m not the kind of person who is into Korean soap/love dramas, but when I saw the local ad in 8TV about the drama “Secret Garden” (or   시크릿 가든  in Korean hangul language - more info HERE), I got attracted. Not because they have handsome hunks or pretty chicks, but I really like to watch dramas' which has something to do with identity switch, be it from the same gender (guy to guy, girl to girl), or from different gender (guy to girl, girl to guy).


To summarize the whole thing, this drama revolves about an identity switch storyline, based on a different gender change. Yes, kind of that typical Korean love-drama-cum-idol-appreciation thing, but this is different. Much different, I would say (or do I seriously need to watch MORE Korean dramas from now on?) This drama was kind of old (started screening end of 2010, finished by early January 2011), but somehow I got the urge to watch it and ended up copying the whole drama from my friend. After years of watching endless Hong Kong TVB dramas, here I am, starting to watch emotional Korean love dramas' to pass my time. And I didn't regret watching this drama as somehow or rather, watching this reminds me so much of myself. It's like looking at a mirror and thinking what have I done all the while in terms of relationship and love.


Yes, I have to admit, drama will always be drama, it's just part of acting. But when you watch a drama and start getting that "familiar" feeling, you can't help it but seems like you have "absorbed" yourself to the drama. As if you're part of the drama, you're the leading actor (although not as handsome, hunky, or whatsoever a man dreams of), falling deeply in love with the leading actress as if she's destined to be with you for the rest of your life, as your life partner, as your best friend, as your wife.


Looking at where I currently stand, well, I'm single.


Not too bad considering the fact that I have the ultimate freedom to do whatever I want, without any obstruction or woman blocking the way. Well, that's the one & only one reason I'm happy with who I am now. Single & free, free & easy. But at times, yes there are times that you really wanted someone to accompany you, to chat with you, to share the happy and sad times with you. I remember there are several scenes from the drama, where it shows how much the leading actor, Kim Joo-Won, missed the companionship of the leading actress, Gil Ra-Im, and start to imagine that the girl he liked is always by his side. Best part is, the "illusion" of the girl can even speak and reply to what the leading actor is saying! Talk about wonderful imagination.


So what am I trying to say actually in this post? After almost 20 years plus of single-hood, and now I'm whining why no girl likes me? Not about that, nor that I am horny & desperately need a girlfriend to satisfy my lust. It's just that....I really wanted a friend, a really good friend who can really be by my side through thick & thin, sharing everything, updating each other on what's happening and what's-not. But I guess in this current materialistic cruel world we're living in, it's almost impossible to actually find someone like that. Yes, seriously, every single f**ker around you are selfish b*stards & bi*ches, besides your immediate family members, in which they really care for you. As such, I don't really put high hopes on actually relying on a single person to know my every single secret. Let the secrets remain as secrets, and may loneliness inside me cure completely upon my upcoming return to Terengganu, the serenity place I missed the most.


Terengganu, please cure my deep pain.


Wednesday, February 22, 2012

b i t * h e s


Dear Bi*ch No.1 & Bi*ch No. 2,

As if you didn't do enough to disturb my pretty sleep early in the morning, now both of you idi*t bi*ches are talking nonsense and whispering here & there, possibly gossiping and discussing on some unconstructive issues. Sorry to say that, I don't appreciate that and may you have constant bad luck & f**ked up life from now on. Hope that both of you can resign asap and get the f**k out of this place, so that I can finally regain peace.


Thank you very much, and yes, this is purely born out of frustration.


P/S : I'm finally . . . . . . . . back.